Sunday, June 23, 2013

I've eaten entirely too much ice cream...

SO:
Quick recap since mother's day.
Craig applied for a job. Craig got interviewed for a job. Craig got offered the job. Craig accepted the job. Chelsea picked out a house.
We're moving to Kingman, AZ in less than two weeks!
In the meantime, I have a couple of thoughts on my mind. First and foremost, being without a husband for an extended period of time really sucks. Four weeks total, it's not even over yet, and I'm bonkers. You might think it would be because I'm taking care of the kids, the house, the food, everything on my own, PLUS packing an entire house before he gets back. That would be the logical reason to go bonkers, but no. The reason that this really sucks is because I miss Craig. It didn't occur to me how much our relationship doesn't depend on the daily routine until he was gone. It doesn't function because we have kids or because we have work or because we have jobs or because we have to work together to maintain a sane household- it depends on us seeing each other physically every day. It depends on pillow talk. It depends on hugs when you feel exhausted. It depends on laughing with someone else when the kids are all crying at the same time. It depends on hand holding and watching movies together and reading scriptures together and sharing our goals and thoughts and advice and opinions and expressions of love. And it really sucks being apart. REALLY SUCKS. Just to reiterate that again.
But, I am excited. We have a house under contract that we love. Craig is getting us a nice fridge. We're deciding on a new couch. I have grand plans to repaint and update about all of our furniture. We're struggling...and by "we", I mean "I", I am struggling to decide what to do with our piano. My mom gave it to me, it has a lot of sentimental value. It's gorgeous. I play it all the time. And it will cost a lot more money than we are willing to pay to move it. But I'm scared to death to risk moving it by ourselves. So we'll figure that out. I met some people in Kingman, I went to church there, I feel good about it, and even though it's difficult to be away, I know Craig does too.
Guess that's all that matters, and I will trust the feelings that I've had about being there. It will be good for us.